2003-07-08 - 4:50 p.m.
this is weighing me down so much
i feel like i'm chained down to the ground
not able to free myself
i know that i've done this
to myself
that if i wanted to,
i could get rid of this attachment
in a healthy and smooth
manner
but instead,
i choose
to stay and wallow
and weep
and long
and lust
and sometimes i justify it
by saying
that we artists
are supposed to have
unhealthy fixations
with mythical, unobtainable
women
but,
i am slowly
dying inside
and i just want
to stop weeping
and stop longing
and stop lusting
and have somebody
love me
because i feel
like
i deserve it
